Happy and Sad is how I feel. My heart aches and my spirit rejoice. I'm rejoicing, because 19yrs ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl..... Amber Shareese. I have watched her grow and develop into a beautiful young lady. April 26 is her day no doubt, but 26 has been a reminder for me of Jack, my father's passing. It's a mix for me. I remember birth and death. Can this be? I sit here and the tears form. I wipe them quickly before any one sees. The 26th of every month since his death on September 26 I think of daddy. Of course, I think of him at other times. It's just that on this day(26) I remember the call I received as I prepared for service. My heart aches as I remember my cousin saying, "Jackie, Jack died." I am lost for words, but yes it is possible.....Happy and Sad.
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort. Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. II Corinthians 1:3-4 (KJV)
Wow sis, I didn't realize you felt that way. I find myself lost at times, too. And one of the happiest times of my life is bond to the sadness that Pops is gone. I wanted so desperately for him to be proud of my being a father and providing for my children. He met my first two daughters after his second stroke, and Lil Jack a year before his homecoming. And now, we are expecting Jayla, our baby who was conceived and will be born under his spirit.
ReplyDeleteMy sorrow and conflicting emotions are only tempered when I think that Pops is at peace and he's smiling on us all for how we are conducting our lives. The will to fight, live and love is ours; and our Earthly and Heavenly Fathers are there waiting to comfort us.
I love you so much, and thank you for sharing your heart.
Your Baby brother,
Jack